Some good....I've been newly self-employed = SUPER exciting new job,so many things to learn and lots & lots to do!
Some bad....I've been a bad mom = mediating squabbles through gritted teeth, throwing my eyes up to heaven at the 'Im bored!' mantra when I should be enthusing them to get up & go ! ...I feel I haven't had enough time to do fun things with my kids, does it ever get easier (I guess I know that answer to that one!)
I've been a (sort-of) bad wife = making time for each other is never easy and now that I'm working from home there's a whole new balance to find, I don't think I'm doing a very good job at it :(
I've been a bad friend = Many of my good friends have troubles and need my help or at least my ear why cant I find time to give THEM more time?
I've been a bad maker = I've flitted from one project to the next, every project I take up makes me think of all the others I have 'in train'. I feel like I've achieved nothing and that (horror of horrors) making is becoming a chore.
I've been a BAD Blogger :( = Ive stopped posting - I've stopped even planning to post
I've been so busy over these past months .....
and I'm feeling overwhelmed.
It would be easy to blame it all on my new circumstances at work
but I love this job and in order to make my life worth living then I need to stop, reassess and start to pay more attention around here!
I've been beating myself up in so many areas and its doing my spirit no good.
on Thursday last I had a meeting in Ballymaloe in East Cork about their fabbie Litfest Event and when the meeting was over I did what I NEVER do - I took 20 minutes out,
and went for a walk on Ballycotton beach.....
& I came to some decisions ..
After a bit of soul searching I came to the decision that my main problem was not all the work I have on
but me ! ME! I'm the problem!
I'm such a perfectionist and if I'm going to stay sane then I'm going to have to stop beating myself up -
Maybe I'm not the best mom, wife, friend or maker,
but I'm doing the best that I can do AT THIS TIME !
I haven't posted on the blog for so long is that I want everything to be perfect...
perfect photos, perfect craft, perfect spelling !
I'm officially giving myself a break !
So to that end I hope to be posting more often from now on
and I'm looking forward to getting back in touch with my bloggy friends!
I've missed you guys!!!